Less than 24 hours

It has kinda been a sucky thanksgiving break for me. Besides for maybe Sunday, because I went out with a friend and had vietnamese food and went shopping but mostly I spent my time alone baking large amounts of christmas cookies to send to family and shopping by myself. In less than 24 hours my beloved returns to me. Hooray! I'm silly I know but being in the house alone is just not as fun as you might think after a day or two. Plus with all stress at work of being a real financial type now I need some one to come home to, to be with, who always has my back. I'm so thankful to have Tim in my life.

So Lonely

In my life since college I have lived in about 10 apartments, two of which I lived by myself for a semester each. I don't remeber ever feeling very lonely either time I lived alone. On Quivera I lived next to my bestest friend, Brande and then my last semester I lived in the graduate and upper classmen apartments but I was so busy I never felt lonely that I recall.

Tim went to his parents house for Thanksgiving. I'm alone for 8 days. Maybe that it's that I'm alone over the holiday or maybe it's because it's the longest we've been apart since I moved out here but it feels pretty rough. That is pretty much all.

Busy, busy shockingly busy

You've no idea wha we have to do. busy busy dreadfully busy more than a bumble bee more than an ant busy busy shockingly busy we love to help but we can't!

From the Tale of Fiberoloo (Veggie Tales)

As the words of the queen and david bowie song "pressure" run through my head I'm not sure how I'm going to make it through this coming week. I have my insurance examination on Tuesday (wish me luck) I have a big meeting with my boss where I need to ask him to let me have a part time job or a raise because I'm finding that I literally cannot live off what they pay me. I have to start writing a seminar with my coworker and have little get together with him and his wife and Tim. AND my mom is coming (which I can hardly contain my excitement) but Tim wants our house to be immaculate for her so it means a whole lot of cleaning. My weekend is packed with work meetings and museum fun in San Francisco with Tim and Emiko I just hope I can pack all this other stuff into the first three days of next week.

I feel it in my fingers

It's getting close to this magical holiday season. Can you feel it in the air? Thanksgiving is a time to think on what we are most thankful for in our lives so in no particular order these are my top ten things I am thankful for:

1. God's love - I all too often take this for granted but I am so happy to know that I don't live a life void of purpose or direction, I am so grateful that God loves me and has a plan for my life.
2. My friends and family - no matter how far away they are.
3. My wonderful boyfriend, Tim
4. That I'm going home for Christmas.
5. That I have passed my first 3 tests for work - all on the first try.
6. That I have a Brande that complicates me.
7. That Kelly and I are going to Disney World in January 2009.
8. Taco Flavored Doritos - that the exist and that you can't buy them in California so I can't eat them very often.
9. Anti-depressants - for people with Depression (like me) they really do a world of good.
10. Pierre - the neighbor cat that I just named and fell in love with and I'm glad he comes over to see us lots since I can't have a puppy.

it's the great pumpkin, charlie brown

you know I've realized that my peanuts references really do nothing for me in the town charles shulz built. I need to get back to Ziggy or Calvin and Hobbs. Anyway Halloween is fast approaching. This makes me excited and sad all at the same time. I like Halloween a lot, it is probably my second favorite holliday. When else could you not shower and dress up like a hobo or dress skanky and not be looked down on for it. Plus the excess of chocolate is always good. Tim and I bought a pumpkin to carve, put up orange and purple lights in the front yard and are planning to make luminaries to light our walk way to encourage children that even though or house faces an ally "Yes, we will give you candy!"

The evil part of halloween is that it's the gateway to the greater holliday season. This year I get to be completely alone for Thanksgiving and then I have to choose to either be with Tim or my family for Chrstmas.

So for now I must go. One week from today I have test number 2 for the new gig so wish me luck.

it's been awhile

A whirlwind two months...sorry for the lack of updates but I have been super busy, super stressed and most of the time way too emotional and as always borderline crazy. So I have met Tim's family (on a vacation in Oregon), become a registered representative and celebrated my one year anniversary with Tim (for which we went to Santa Barbara for the weekend) in that order. Work is, let's just say, challenging. I'm not convinced at all that this is what I want to do. For the moment though it is a good expirience to have.

So other than that what have I been upto? I have been taking in my spare time a tax prep class (hoping that I will be able to increase my cash flow during tax season-however it still has yet to be approved by Manager) and I have also begun my training to be a track star. Ok I'm kidding (sorta) Kel and I have been talking about it for awhile now but we are going to make it happen: The Walt Disney World Half Marathon in January 2009. So I literally have been "training" I've never really run at any point in my life so I'm trying this whole walk for awhile, then run for a while, repeat routine (my hip hurts by the way.) I have over a year so I know I can do it. I'll try to get some vacation pics up net time.

Because it's Saturday....

Almost every Saturday since I moved to California Tim sings me a little song in the morning about what you don't have to do like go to work or school and you can stay in bed all day "because its Saturday" the song makes me happy and now that I don't work on the weekends any more the song makes me more happy.

So I have now completed my first two weeks at my new job, mostly just studying to pass test and having to deal with being one of only three women that are financial advisors. So it can suck a lot. I'm looking forward to being done with my first big test at the end of september. The day I actually take the test is our one year anniversary so either i'll be double happy or really crabby.

I did, however, get a day off so I am going to Oregon with Tim's family at the end of this month.